I had an interesting journey to self discovery which began with some painful experiences.
These experiences lead to a powerful self introspection that then resulted in where I am today. -- Neferatiti Ife
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My journey began with a painful and bitter marriage which ended in divorce. The verbal physical abuse and loss of self- esteem which I endured and allowed. Through weekly counselling and further self questioning I began to slowly regain some of my shattered self esteem and completed the divorce. This is not the end of the story.
After the traumatic experience I was much happier but was very much poorer I was left bringing up my child on my own and was now a single parent and studying fulltime. No money and no house to live in left it’s own scars. Although this was the case even in my times of deprivation I was still able to have relationships.
As time moved on I finished my studying had a lovely house and had come through the trials and tribulations of bringing up a child. During all of this time of great stress and poverty I developed an interest in the spiritual world and self-development.
I began to attend personal development courses. These enabled me to gain internal insight to ask questions as to why certain things were happening. Did I have any control to change them? The answer really was within me and this internal searching for betterment and greater understanding of self brought me to the door of spirituality. To begin with I was sceptical but as time went on I became fascinated by the unseen world. I realised what was missing from all of the personal development groups was the spiritual element. Which meant that the effects of the personal development courses were temporary.
My spiritual journey began with meditation. Meditation slowed my thinking mind down, gave me an inner calmness which allowed me to feel at one with myself and to connect with the voice within. I maintained a sense of peace and inner tranquillity and was able to predict the short term future. My curiosity began to develop further and I began to attend psychic groups –I found this fascinating and was overwhelmed with the information and my ability to feel at home with the psychic world. So on one level I was excited but on the personal level my relationships were failing and I was now experiencing relationships lasting for 2 years and then they would end. This became very emotionally tiring.
A turning point came when I was involved in a relationship that I was convinced I had met my soul mate and this was it. We were very connected and were very loving to each other. But this was masked by the anger which my ex-partner held, which was like a volcano waiting to erupt at any time and did explode several times. This angry man felt threatened and I tipped toed around him for a year hoping not to upset him. Agreeing with him to not cause an argument. After a time I looked at myself in the mirror and decided that I needed to be me and this relationship as nice as it was in the beginning, was suffocating. When I lashed back, the relationship came to an end with him going away and not returning - without an explanation. I felt abandoned completely, even tried to make it work and deluded myself that he wanted to be with me. It was not meant to be but it was the best thing that happened in my life that year.
The sudden realisation that I had the power to change things was my transformation. Through the hurt and pain and embarrassment. I came to the realisation that if I am a queen then I should expect the best and not lower my standards. I created a timetable of doing things that I wanted to do to expand my world and my knowledge - a relationship was the last thing on my mind.
Firstly, I would have to fix myself - this was not easy. I bought every personal development tape, book to help me to work on myself. I began to realise that I was not a victim but I had the power to create my future.
As time moved on, out of the blue I met my King –this was a lightening bolt. This relationship was pivotal to my connection with the divine realms. I felt happier more content and began to meditate on a daily basis. With the encouragement and the sincere belief from my partner I began to experience revelations ie the GODS speaking to me. They began by blessing the relationship and giving messages on other subjects. From there I went on to ask for guidance and I received many answers.
These messages from the Mother/Father Principle, GODS and spiritual guides, I share with you. Neferatiti Ife | |
